Life Lately #1 | Northen Adventures and Etsy Relaunch

Ahhhh, it's good to be back in front of my laptop tapping away at the keys, only trouble is I've been stuck on what to write. You all know that my blog is my private little space on the internet that I share with a handful of you guys but sometimes I feel a little restricted on what I can and can't publish even though I make rules around here. The thing is, I want to be really open with you and tell you everything that's going on in my life and write really awesome, relatable content but the truth is I can't open myself up to share all those little personal bits. 

Anyway, enough of me feeling sorry for myself, let's dive into what's been going on, shall we? 

Why Hello There, 2017

Man, I can't believe it, it's finally a new year! Let's say farewell to 2016 by telling the world just how naff it was. ~Thank god it's over~ Now I'm not the type to say all this "new year, new me" malarky but this year I think it just may be my year for a change. There's no real reason why I think this beside my gut having a fluttery feeling when I think about it, ooooo.

Where Have I Been?

For the past couple of weeks it's felt like I fell off the face of the earth and to be quite honest I feel as if i'm still lost. Just before my birthday in late November I faced a huge betrayal which I never saw coming, it was a huge smack in the face and a major knock back in my well being and mental health and since then I've been struggling with the simplest of tasks and every day life.

Why I Left My First Job Before It Began

A job is something I've always wanted but couldn't have for a very long time, it's not because I didn't have the qualifications or the skills, it's not because I was lazy or couldn't be bothered; It was because of my heath, my mental health. 

For the past few years I've suffered from mental illness, I was diagnosed 3 years ago but have been battling with the same feelings since I was an early teenager and I'm nearly 21 now. Feeling this way made my education and my social life extremely difficult and it still has a huge impact on how I live now.

For the past year or so I have been living on benefits as I have been deemed not fit to work by a medical professional and I decided to take the time to focus on getting better. I attended my psychiatrist appointments and tried several different medications but they all came with too many side effects or didn't lift my spirits. 

Everybody tells me "only you can make yourself better, you need to be positive" or "it's all in your head" but it's not as simple as that, is it? I have surrounded myself with the things I enjoy and the people I love; I've practiced self care and socialising, going out and keeping myself busy but at the end of the day the thoughts are back and I'm feeling hopeless again.